Well, here it is again. My mom says that it's my lot in life to send off my best friends into the unknown. Maybe it is. but this is the last one. Colbren. wow. I've been through all the emotions with him. I've hated him, i've gotten angry with him...and frustrated. But he's brought me joy, and comfort, and i've loved him. Just like all of my really close friends.
The thing about sending missionaries off is that you don't quite know what will happen in two years. Will you see them again? and if you do will things be the same? It's so hard to let someone go when you know deep down that even if you do see them at the end of those two years things won't be the same. In a way it is a permanent goodbye. You're saying goodbye to life with that person as you know it.
Colbren. I've never been treated with so much kindness before. Sure, my really close friends have always treated the girl of their interest with much respect and thoughtfulness. I've just never been on the receiving end of it. I've always been the observer. But with Colbren, I have been on the receiving end. It kind of helps me know now what it must feel like to have someone really care about you...and that maybe i shouldn't settle for anything less. I've seen that boy grow so much. I've seen his conversion and i've seen how strong in the Spirit he can be. That's what i want. Sigh. so, like wes, he now will be a measuring stick: one of the people i compare everyone against. Sigh.
Goodbye Colbren.
MAYBE you shouldn't settle? Goodness, silly girl! And of course he's a stick. The entire point of dating and meeting boys it to collect enough sticks so that you know exactly what you want. It's like buying a house. You kinda have to look around and see what suits your varied needs the best :) And don't worry--they'll be coming home before you know it. Lol Brian's coming home in March and the thought actually freaks me out cuz I'm used to all of these boys being gone. But Kerby will come home pretty soon here, and then the others will trickle in. But you'll get engaged at BYU anyways, so that's okay ;) You don't need to be sad, because he'll come back better than he left, and you'll be better, too. Saying goodbye to the past is actually a relief sometimes--you get to move forward so things can be even better!
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