Sunday, August 23, 2009
My issue with boys.
Ooooookkkkk,new problem. Do you remember luke? Do you remember me telling you that I couldn't talk around him, and I completely shut down? yah...how do I stop that from happening? I can't be squirming around boys for the rest of my life or I'm never gonna get married!!! Not that I want to right now, but someday yes, but that day will never come if I don't figure out a way to swallow my fear and BE MYSELF!!!!! geez, you wouldn't think someone would need practice being themselves! sigh. I need mental help.
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Ah, darling! You're okay. It takes practice, and occasionally duping yourself. This may sound weird...but try acting. No matter how you feel, say "I'm going to be hyper crazy Brittney today!" or "I'm going to be uber-happy Brittney tonight!" If that doesn't work, try a character--from a favorite book or movie. Leech some of their devil-may-care, carefree attitude. The thing is, once you've done something, (even if you were acting) you realize that you CAN indeed do it! I know you want to be yourself, and that is the goal, but try being someone a little bit different until YOU are ready to come out. Approach a boy like I would, or like Cambria would. Don't second guess anything. View talking to boys like a game--you get points for length of the conversation, whether you made him smile/laugh, whether YOU smile/laugh, etc. You're not looking for an "eternal companion" yet, so have fun! Life is a game. So play it!
ReplyDeleteOh, and, please--STOP ANALYZING. You only get to see one little facet of someone that you don't know very well. You don't know what factors and experiences are playing into their psyche. So stop thinking and worrying about it! There was a guy who wanted to ask my friend out once--and it took him four bloody months to work up the nerve, and then he barely talked to her during the entire date. But he wanted to ask her out, and he even asked her out a second time. You just never know what others are thinking, so don't try to figure it out. Just go with it. If you want to talk to a guy, do it. If you want to avoid a guy--do it ;)
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